Blogos-fear...

It’s been quite a while since my last blog post. I suppose it’s because the second post I ever posted was... well... a bit careless (she says sheepishly). So because of that I’ve spent over a month trying to decide whether I should write another blog post. I kept thinking, if I DO decide to write another blog post, do I need to explain why the last post was taken down? Do I need to explain why it’s been over a month since I’ve written anything... and if I choose NOT to explain, will it seem disjointed and weird? But that actually got me thinking about a bigger question… why do I want to blog at all???

So fine… I’ll explain… a little. My first blog post was just a little thing I wrote after being transfixed and inspired by the wonder of nature (that’s nice, right?). The second little thing I wrote was… a lapse in judgment. SO – let’s just forget about that… please. BUT, I can confidently say, “Lesson learned.”

But back to the bigger question, why blog?... I keep asking myself this question over and over again. For some reason, I feel the need to... which is weird, because, well... I'm kind of scared... I keep hearing that voice in my head... the voice I like to call the A**HOLE... saying things like, “What if it’s stupid. What if it’s not funny. What if the people who read this think I’m an attention seeking whore who doesn’t have anything interesting to say?” Thank you A**HOLE for always being so forthcoming and blunt (she says with dripping sarcasm). You always know just what to say to keep me depressed and frustrated. BUT... let me tell you this - A**HOLE (& readers, if I have any) - there are numerous things I think of on a daily basis that I get the urge to write about... and it MAY be stupid, and it MAY be not funny, but I’m doing it anyway gahhhdammit! So there (she yells)! So there (she says more quietly with a quiver in her voice). There it is. I’ve taken the first step towards the blogosphere... and I’m going to blog the SHIT out of it!